Epistolaris (#2 iteration) #2 Players - atchu and Y.

because it should be said at least once
throwing reason ego and everything else aside
streching to speak from heart,

my darling
i heard you
my heart is dead

i wanted to share this with you
then do, don’t, then don’t, do
could not stop starring at you
there was something about who you were and are
drew me in
felt very familiar
i could not shake it felt like i knew you
like i met you before
everything about it was so odd, unusual but cool at the same time
you said you were from Brazil
i knew we had not met at all
went beyond here or now
like a familiar feeling, you know?
maybe i do, maybe i don’t
just tell me more about unicorns!

after all, seriously, what are the odds
that you and i would meet each other in this crazy city?
NYC is so random,
kaleidoscopes in every corner,
and the G train sucks after midnight

the last time i saw you sitting across from me in the caffe
it was brooklyn and night, neon steps a table
we sat for 2 hours talking and catching up
and you encouraged me to pour honey over my poetry
you have no idea
or maybe you do
about how incredibly sexy and creative that was
had i been more in touch with my sensuality i would have acted on my impulse
to kiss you right there like i wanted to
it’s been 3 months since then
have learned some lessons about life like seize
love and leave
i had atendency to think you had time to say time
and time to say how you felt
or don’t
and i know now that’s not true
the only time you had is this moment
i get it
and then that’s it so live it fully

thank you for some other day
there was this guitar player and singer and they sang a bob marley song that was lovely
i fucking love that song, three little birds
others began to sing along
and it made me think
about expanding spaces
who is to say what can and can’t be done in a space

life through a different lens and i love that for sure
so to say it short and sweet
“i dig you poet”
i always had
i was fearful of change, maybe that’s why we met
i am ready to see and be honest with how i feel
and we should stay in touch, give me a call
let’s hang-out
we can learn a lot from each other
I believe that, and

would like to take you up on that poem.

until